angst

am ansty and anxious today - like i'm on the brink of a new discovery... because yesterday was wonderful... and who knows how tomorrow will be... and today is anyway halfway done... there is a nervous feeling as i go through the day waiting for my life to improve dramatically and exponentially every minute... knowing that i am the only one who can do anything about it... hating myself for each opportunity lost... and so the yin and the yang co-exist... as i wait for my catharsis...